it’s a beautiful world where i can type ‘sonic the hedgehog as a magician’ into a laptop computing device and have that drawing delivered instantaneously to my eyeballs. where can cultural development go from here
I would be lying if I said I was 100% happy with the way things are.
It was not my intention to make you feel uncomfortable. I’m not even sure if I did I’m just rambling I guess.
If anything you were a lesson that I so desperately needed to learn. For once in my life I was treated by a man with respect. You held doors open for me, paid for me without saying a word, asked for my opinion, and most importantly made me feel good about myself. I understand that this is not good timing whatsoever. You just got out of a relationship. You’re just starting a new job and it’s exhausting. We would have to deal with being six hours apart for most of the time. I wish things could have been different but they could be a lot worse. I don’t see this as a “goodbye” but more as a “see you later”. I just hope that I haven’t ruined everything.
Telling you what has been going through my head for weeks was probably one of the most terrifying things I’ve ever done. I’m proud of myself. I don’t normally do things like that. I hope that things work out. I pray to every god that’s willing to listen that things work out. I need a change and this has been marvelous, I just hope it lasts a while longer. I’m honestly terrified to talk to you. I wish we could have gotten to it tonight. I understand you’re busy. I just wish you had said something. I want things to be different. I would hate myself if this didn’t work because then that’s a lot of emotion wasted on someone who was just toying with my feelings for some “summer fun”. Please don’t be that person. Please.